I’ve had this blog on my mind all day today. Mostly thinking about how much I miss writing and that I hate how I struggle to find time to post. So I told myself that I would make time tonight. Today would be the day. Then as I sat at work and thought about what I would write… crickets. I got nothin’. And I mean – ZERO. Really? I mean, am I that out of practice? Well, obviously the answer is yes to that question. I honestly can’t remember the last time I actually sat down and really wrote something, and as the day progressed and no ideas popped into my brain, it became clear that today was apparently NOT going to be the day.
A couple hours ago, I found myself deep in the throws of my 3 year old’s tantrum. And when I say “tantrum” I don’t mean a little fit about not wanting to go to bed… No, those are the tantrums I dream about, the tantrums I covet. No, no – Dom has a special brand of tantrum just for me, that usually results in me questioning how I’ll ever raise him to be an adult without completely screwing him up. Or without me being checked into an asylum. It feels like the race is on to one of those finish lines and Dom is winning. Anyway, that’s a post for another day – when I can talk about it without my growing frustration oozing into my writing. The point of my story is that during one of the moments when I was sitting outside his bedroom while he screamed and cried, I was trying to think of blog post ideas – and I couldn’t believe that I was still drawing a blank. And as I sat there frustrated, I found myself absent-mindedly running my hand over my stomach where my colostomy is and thinking – I want to go take a hot shower and change my Ileostomy bag – and then go to bed FOREVER. Or at least until my alarm goes off at 6:30 tomorrow morning.
Fast forward a little while and that’s when it happened. Brilliance struck my brain. Literally – a stroke a genius. I was right in the middle of changing my Ileostomy and I thought – O.M.G. I need a holiday themed bag. A cute little pouch or pouch cover that is totally covered in all things Christmas. I can see it now! A little North Pole scene with Santa and some reindeer? I mean throw in a Frosty the Snowman and you are SET! I would totally wear one of those. That’s it – I’m doing it. This is going to be my big break! I’m going to design a holiday themed pouch. And you know what? I’m going to make millions!
Googled it. It’s been done. It’s all been done before. SO I bought one and went to bed. This is, apparently, not my big break. It was a good idea though right? You’d totally buy one, admit it. Sigh… guess I missed the boat on that one.